T.D.R. 05

Dolhanna: Lying on the couch, still in Calin's t-shirt from 2 days ago; I have got to pull myself together....at least somewhat. The guilt, the emptiness, the utter and complete loss without Calin is overwhelming in it's intensity. Thank the Goddess Rodmyn came by this morning. I needed my "brotther" and talking with him put a lot into perspective. He is so good like that. Not many know that side to him.... I know what I did was wrong; I should have talked to Calin; should have trusted in him and believed in him to understand. I totally dropped the friggin' ball and I have to, no, I NEED to talk to my male. I miss him with every fiber of our being.... Sitting up, I decided a hot shower is in order. My phone alerts me that there is a text. Hoping it's Calin, I grab for the phone to see it is from Viho. Reading his message, I push the mess that is my hair off my face and with a sigh I text him back. Hitting send, I get my ass off the couch reaching for the house phone and ask Aron to come and make a light meal. Taking a breath, I walk into our bedroom for the first time since our world blew apart. Taking another fortifying breath, I head for the shower.